This time around

So I figured it's time to write down some of my thoughts, few and far between they may be. It's almost Spring Break, and where as many of my friends are traveling to awesomely warm places, I'm trying to be content with the thought of spending a week at home by myself. What's there to do at home with no one around? I've been trying so hard to think of what to do that would make the best use of my time. However, I've come to realize that the more I think about it, the less content and discouraged I am about the whole thing. That word is popping up more and more these days in my life everywhere I go. Content. Be content. Am I content? Paul was content in every situation in life, and I really can't use the excuse that life then is sooo drastically different than now. What is stopping me from being content with the way things are going/turning out? That's exactly it. The way things are going/turning out. Looking around I see those who have things so wonderfully handed to them, and then things are always a tad bit off for me and my life. I've found that I'm turning to God and asking why me, what did I do to deserve what I'm getting, what did I do to deserve getting pushed back down to the ground? BUT, are these things happening because God wants to teach me how to be content in every situation, no matter how well off others are? This is hard...... I guess I'll have a lot of time to think about it over Spring Break, among other things that are going on right now. I think a quiet heart and a willing spirit would be good right about now. That's all.